A whole Lot of Nothing

This post was started about 2 weeks ago, I wanted to post it before it got too much more out of date...
Sorry it is so incomplete.

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Schools out and things keep moving faster and faster.  I feel little like I am caught in an escalator that keeps speeding up and speeding up.  Part of it is being busy and part of it is seeing the kids change.  I don't think I would know how old I was if I didn't have kids.  They mark the time for me.  I can only imagine that one day I will look up, and it will be only Mr. T. and I again.  It makes me want to hold onto those two little kids and never let them go.

But I would be lying if I said I didn't sometime fantasize about it only being us again.

We are back in swim lessons again.  BabyP is doing them as well as Peanut.  He is doing marvelous.   He has more to learn.   He is getting brave and will go down slides by himself.  He will jump into the water.  He will put his face in, and he will instantly tell you he doesn't like it.  I think Peanut is showing off a bit. She is interested in talking to her friends and doing flips. She is swimming by herself now.  She can do the crawl, but she chooses to goof around instead.  She has a friend that is older in her class.  She always wants me to call her a mermaid.

We spend most days at the pool, because it is so hot right now.  I have been running in the morning on the weekends, but in ways, that seems like the hottest part of the day because the humidity is so high.  The relatively cool temperatures of 83 degrees Fahrenheit just don't seem to cut it these days.  

It is fun to see how grown up the kids are.  Parts of me really like the age they are in now.  My only hesitation is that Peanut is starting to turn into a little bit of diva, which makes me bonkers.  She corrects me constantly and treats me like I am a moron.  I thought I had another 8 years or so before this set in. BabyP is prone to huge bouts of grumpiness.  When Peanut starts acting like a diva, it really spins my world out of orbit.

Peanut is interesting because she is becoming a very complicated little person.  I guess I never really realized how complicated human beings are.  She can be stormy and emotional.  We talk through the things that are bothering her.  I try to tune into if she is too tired or too hungry.  I try to find answers for her moods.  Somehow, in the last 6 months, it quit being easy with her.  It is almost like I looked up one day and didn't really know who she was anymore.  I still feel like she is my sweet little girl, but it seems like she grew some more layers that I just haven't figured out yet.

BabyP is turning into a little charmer.  He is goofy and funny as well as his temperamental old self.  He gets mad at me and yells things are STUPID.  "I don't want to go home.  Home is stupid!"  He pushes the boundaries.  I have to stay firm with him, but secretly I am proud that he is so strong.  I want him to be strong young man who is unwaivering in his support of something.  With that being said, I realize that I need to help him learn to listen to himself and others.