Time

Maybe it is my age or maybe it is because my kids are getting bigger, but I have been acutely aware of how time is slipping by.  Sometimes it is almost paralyzing thinking about how quickly things seem to be streaming by.  It makes me wonder if I shouldn't spend less time in motion and more time just sitting and thinking.

These last couple of weeks have been a bit of a blur.  It seems that things are never going to slow down.  The two weeks I had at the beginning of the year were pretty wonderful.  I just focused on taking care of business.  I don't think I am the only one that feels that way either.  It seems that anyone I talk to feels the same way.  I feel like a blur of constant motion running from one fire to the next.

I think in one of those seven habit books, it talks about how people have a tendency to be caught up in being reactionary.  We spend all of our time responding that we are not able to really move anywhere.  I have been thinking about that and how I can move out of that habit.  I think the book calls it being deliberate, but my girlfriend calls it being present.  I think I like being present more.

I have been practicing being present by not taking so many pictures.  As a result, I haven't been really playing with my camera like I want to, but I have also shown my face to my kids more.  I am trying to be more about right here, right now, then I have been.  It isn't any easy thing for people like me who like to have things sketched out in their minds.  There is a place for that too, but there is a little bit of relief in setting my own priorities for my time.

So that is what is up.  I haven't been blogging.  I have been thinking and reading and enjoying life.  I have been getting over being sick and making plans for my family.  (although I do need to post about the half marathon and audible and how peanut rules at school.  maybe I will get to it.  Maybe I won't)